사랑해요 ♥

2011-06-09T12:29:00.001+08:00

Chuck & Blair

Blair: "I don't wanna let you go just yet."
Chuck: "Don't let anyone tell you you're not powerful. You're the most powerful woman i know."
Blair: " Its taking all the power i have to walk away from you."
Chuck: " I know. But i need to let you go. (and) You need to let me go."
Blair: " I will always love you"
Chuck: "I will always love you"

2011-04-04T12:31:00.001+08:00

GOODBYE

2011-03-02T12:00:00.003+08:00

thought if blogging here, so yup, back at blogspot now.
yup, i've graduated from ITE ! looking back at this 2yrs, i've really seen myself grown alot ...
been push to my limits like never before, and now, i'm seeing all the fruits.
but there's always room for improvement, that's for sure ! (:

was reading at my old blog post before blogging, the most happening things at ITE was :
- being able to be part of BL
- 14th
- 16th
- F1 night race
- Korea trip ( a timely trip)
- LNR

when looking back, i do remember those times in my heart, but never do i wanna rewind time.
what's done is done, just gotta live with it.
things may just turn out to be a blessing in disguise.

2011-03-01T08:38:00.002+08:00

"Just graduate and move on. "

2011-02-02T16:48:00.001+08:00

" A girl, no matter how many times she denies it, will always remember every detail, every moment, every piece of the memories you’ve left her. No matter how much she tries to forget, it will forever be there. "

2011-01-22T12:06:00.003+08:00

"I don't love you cause you ask me if i love you.
I love you cause you know i love you but you still ask if i love you."

2010-12-19T20:01:00.001+08:00

Just for you

2010-12-14T07:09:00.000+08:00

"I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I do not expect perfection from you—just as you do not expect it from me. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you’re in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down—not just when you’re fun to be with. ‘I love you’ means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them—asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping that you feel the same way for me.

2010-11-24T23:03:00.001+08:00

She isn’t clingy because she cares. She isn’t psycho because she wants to know who you’re with. She isn’t doubtful because she fears losing you. She isn’t insecure because she thinks another girl isn’t pretty. She isn’t boring because you don’t see her dolled up anymore, she just feels comfortable. Don’t blame her if she doesn’t call you all the time, she doesn’t want you to think she’s crazy. She just wants you to have some space. When you ask your girlfriend if you can do something and she says yes, it doesn’t always mean sure, go ahead. Yes she trusts you, she just doesn’t always trust the people around you. She’s not territorial. She’s not controlling. She just likes you, wants you to stay, and is just being the normal, caring, loving, will-do-anything type of girlfriend she is. So don’t break promises, even though we know you will. So don’t ignore her, even though we know sometimes you do. Don’t take advantage of her kindness, even though you already have. And don’t hurt her. Us girls don’t ask for much, just a moment of your time, a hand to hold, shoulder to cry on, and ears that will actually listen. We don’t expect you to be perfect because we already think you’re perfect for us. Your imperfections just make us love you more and more. So don’t hurt her, because she dropped her guard for you.

2010-11-06T14:58:00.002+08:00

bye people, not gonna blog here anymore
or at least .. for the time being ...

why blog when nobody cares eh ?

2010-10-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

himnae! aja aja hwaiting !

Been so so so tired nowaday !
& things been going on so wrong for me & feeling ever so down till on the verge of breaking down now & then ...
BUT! i'm still going on fine (:
thanks to friends around me & my LNR ! :D

through this tough period of time, i realise some stuff ...

"Age/Maturity comes with more responsibility as well as power & position"

the above sentence struck me when i was thinking of what's happening to me recently while walking from school to Circle line this evening ...
i guess its really true and its only normal to endure & go through that difficult situation of your's in life cos in time to come, there will be more & more greater & difficult situations awaiting for you to handle and approach.

2010-10-24T22:50:00.003+08:00

I give my first love to you

Watched this movie today.
its a good movie, worth to catch (:
some part is just plain hilarious, some part just trigger you to think a lot ...

this movie make me think lots too i guess ...
cos there's this scene that is so similiar to the deathbed of my grandfather that i just started crying ...
then another scene just make me goes like:
" a break-up is already painful enough, not to mention having to go through a death of your love ones ..."

"Though there's a time limit to my love, but it seems like a lifetime"

2010-10-23T01:29:00.002+08:00

BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS!

Firstly(!), i'll like to thank everyone who wish me on my birthday & those who go the extra mile to buy me presents & helped me to celebrate my birthday.
A VERY BIG "THANK YOU" TO YOU ! ♥

First Celebration

Met up with Sharon to have dinner BUT she treated me to Pizza Hut as a birthday present ! :D
Sweet of her & i was shocked man !
thank you for your treat ! ♥

Second Celebration

refer to the previous post, thank you very much :D

Third Celebration

Fenella, Raihan & Yi Jen celebrated my birthday !
din thought that they'll celebrate for me !
though it was a last min thing due to the last min changes to lessons time & all,
but appreciated it loads girls ! ♥

Fourth Celebration

2010 April Intake BL's all gather at the foyer to celebrate my birthday as well as Twinnie's & Jini ...
they sang birthday song to us right at the foyer and had a cake prepared too ! :D

Fifth Celebration

went to Lesalle to watch Liyee's performance and the performance is awesome ! :D ♥
after the performance, CG celebrated my birthday as well as Chong Sing's !
*was shocked at that time cos i din expect them to celebrate my birthday at there
BUT right after the cutting of cake, the performance crew knew there was some birthday celebration going on thus the whole performance crew sang a birthday for us again ...
the celebration was good (:
had the big-o balloon that i've wanted since don't know when ! :D ♥
LOVE THE BALLOON TTM ! ♥ ♥

Wrapping up,
thank you all who wish me, celebrate my birthday for me ..
thank you all !
loves !

2010-10-19T22:51:00.003+08:00

thank you & sorry

LNR celebrated my birthday today ! (:
Had Manhattan for lunch at Bishan then proceed to Plaza Sing for my present ! (:
after that, cathay for movie, watched "Life As We Know It" then dinner at Ajisen ...
everything was fully paid by LNR ! :O :D

Thank you LNR for everything today ~ !
all the meals, movie and presents ...
thank you for everything LNR ! ♥

2010-10-17T01:05:00.003+08:00

when hectic schedules burn you out ...

Just came from the Bl camp today morning.
BL camp was ... well, just i prefer my own batch of camp BUT i enjoyed every single bit of being a senior in the camp this time round :x

left the campsite around 8am plus with teachers, met LNR at CCK then send him off to work.
after that train home and totally KO when i reach home !
woke up around 3pm to have lunch then went back to sleep around 4pm, woke up at 7pm, dinner at 10pm !

now waiting for LNR to reach home safely(!) then i'll go to bed ..
after all the sleeps in during the noon, i'm still feeling tired ! D:

2010-10-14T23:04:00.003+08:00

When simple things make you happy (:

this whole week school been crazy !
having BL meeting to attend almost everyday after school in the evening !
thank God that I'm still coping well with my school work (:
AOA is teaching bout Access now, still coping well ! (:
as for Project module, just settled the groupings. My group will be same as POM except that Dayang is not in ...
am seriously hoping last term will be a good & memorable one ! :D

Though school's been crazy, but LNR make it less crazy for me, haha!
have been meeting up with LNR recently for movie/dinner and his company just make me feel all those stress and busyness go away ...
just love meeting LNR ♥

sometimes i just wonder whether did i make the wrong choice ?

2010-10-10T21:42:00.002+08:00

when you've move on, so as i

When for service with Katriel & Jacq today, but Ken drive us there though (:
in the midst of Worship, i just felt that my heart was being filled with His love and also reminded of how i begin my Christian walk till now ...
His work in life is really amazing ...

tmr's the first day of school, first day of new term,
hoping everything will turn out fine and alright.

2010-10-09T00:38:00.004+08:00

modparade!

Went out shopping with Jacq today ! ♥
went to Haji lane for shopping and lunch (:

overall shopping, bought 3 tops, 1 jacket (from Jacq) and 1 leggings !
spent loads today ! like around $70 or $80 !
the rest of the day ... God bless me !

on the other hand, school gonna reopen on mon !
kinda can't wait for it but if school gonna reopen, it also gonna means i'll have endless meetings to attend to and maybe nidda start doing minutes ! D:

2010-10-06T20:09:00.005+08:00

remember some time ago i blogged about a leader that i've always look up to and all ?
yea, its Jayme aka Shing ...
she recently got engaged too !
was totally surprise & happy for her ... looking at her pictures of proposal and all ... just make me feel so touched and all ... cos looking back at all her blog post that she mention bout what Jia hao had did for her .. it just amaze me and i'm really happy for her ...

so just wanna dedicate this blog post to her cos i just can't help wanna share this ...

2010-10-06T16:47:00.002+08:00

♥

what is that ?

2010-10-04T16:55:00.004+08:00

Trip to korea ! ♥

It was really a trip thats on time. A trip for me to clear my mind & all ...
When i'm over at Korea, i really enjoyed every single bit. leaving everything i have in Singapore in Singapore and just plainly enjoyed this school trip.

Although the weather can get super cold till i nidda wear 5 layers but still feeling cold, but it's all good. Had a good experience over there and brought back to Singapore some special memories ...
Special thanks to the clique i had in Korea too ! ♥

took loads of photos over there, have upload it all onto my Facebook (:
but ending with my favourite picture ! its taken together with my clique at Korea and my tour guide (:

a lover in korea ♥

2010-10-04T16:43:00.007+08:00

F1 Night Race

F1 was good! first time working for F1 though i'm 2nd year at ITE ...
its really a good experience, knew loads of peeps too ...
had a chance to help out at the Pit Lanewalk & Track Invasion ..
so all in all, its really good ...
i guess i shall let all the pictures all the talking (:

2010-09-16T17:40:00.001+08:00

2010-09-10T14:33:00.001+08:00

It hurts - 2NE1

[CL] You wear the shoes I gave you and walk along the streets with her
As if it were nothing, you kiss her
You spray the cologne I gave you and embrace her
You'll probably repeat those promises you made to me with her

[Minzy] It seems that we're already too late
Has our love already ended
Please at least say anything to me
We truly loved each other, can't turn back?

[Dara] I'm the only one hurting tonight

[Bom] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You look at my tears as if it were nothing
You continue to talk calmly again
[CL] You told me cruely that you couldn't deny
That you had absolutely no attachments or regrets

[Bom] Are we already too late? Is our love over?
Even if it's a lie, please tell me it isn't so
I can do better now, though we can't meet again

[Dara] I'm the only one in pain tonight

[CL] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You're no longer your old self
[CL] Because the you I loved
And the you now are so different
[Dara] Are you that shocked?
I just stood and cried
Watching you become further away
[Bom] No way, I can't recognize
You're not mine anymore

[Dara] Did you have to change?
Can't you come back?
Did you really have to change?
Can't you come back?

Did you have to change?
Can't you come back?
Why did you have to change?
Can't you keep loving me?

[Bom] Oh, is this the end?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
[Minzy] It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] It hurts, it hurts
[CL] It hurts, it hurts

2010-09-10T12:09:00.002+08:00

Credit: Allkpop

2NE1 new album is out! Bet everybody's going crazy over either a specific song or a a few at one go, but for me, i like this song best (:

2NE1 - Love Is Ouch

[All] Break it down now
Break it down now
Break it down now
This how it's goin' down

[Minzy] You say you love me but why
Do you keep making it so hard for me?
What is it exactly that you're upset about
Recently your increased interference
and meddling is wearing me out

[CL] Hey, like that, I've been avoiding
Your phone calls for the past few days again
I tell you what's going on
Your promise to make only me happy, boy
Tell me what's up, what's up, you've changed a lot

[Dara] You're trying to overcome this easily
But it seems our time's already up,
Time to say good bye, don't pretend like you can't hear me
We were over a long time ago, now turn your head away
I'm singing a break-up song, bye my love

[Minzy] I'm going to fly higher to that far away place
I'm not going to be fooled anymore by sweet temptations
It's a new start, now it's time to part ways
Once again, I'm boldly making my exit

[Bom] So as expected from you, I hope that you'll
Be free from me forever, this moment right now
Love is always ouch and always comes with pain
I will forget you now

[CL] Sighs that naturally come out in the middle of our increased arguments
We're doing wrong to each other, and you know this too, that I'm better without you
Whenever we fight our repetitive, guilty fights, we always try to win against the other
I hate myself when I'm like this and so I hate you more, I'm trying to erase you now

[Dara] Please think of farewell as love as well
You'd drive me crazy
Being like this, I don't think I can help but hate you
Instead I'll tell you, it's over, now turn your head away
I'm singing a breakup song, goodbye my love

[CL] I'm going to fly higher to that far away place
I'm not going to be fooled anymore by sweet temptations
It's a new start, now it's time to part ways
Once again, I'm boldly making my exit

[Bom] So as expected from you, I hope that you'll
Be free from me forever, this moment right now
Love is always ouch and always comes with pain
I will forget you now

[CL] Wherever I go, I will think of you
You're always next to me, always by my side
[Bom] I'll pray for you, bring my two hands together
That you're happy, and that we're forever forever forever together

[Dara] 'm going to fly higher to that far away place
I'm not going to be fooled anymore by sweet temptations
It's a new start, now it's time to part ways
Once again, I'm boldly making my exit

[Bom] So as expected from you, I hope that you'll
Be free from me forever, this moment right now
Love is always ouch and always comes with pain
I will forget you now

[All] Break it down now
It's almost over now

[Dara] I won't forget, day and night
The memories I always had with you
Memories I had with you

2010-08-29T18:51:00.005+08:00

My two beloved buddy! ♥

Went for SOT graduation service today at Expo. Went with Jacq, glad that we're back on talking terms. Although we were late for the service, but the service was awesome. felt super impacted inside me. Can't help to tear serveral times. The Msg during the SOT graduation service serve as a good reminder for me just on time. Should say through this week CGM & SOT graduation service, i was reminded & "reprimanded" & inside me was going through several lessons.

On the other hand, Congrats to Benjamin, David, Katriel & Kok Khuen for graduating from SOT !
I'm super proud of you!

*though i dunno whether will you read it or not, BUT STILL:

my dear dear dear Katriel & Kok khuen,
you two went to SOT at the same time & survive through all the trials which really encourage, impacted me loooads. Am so proud of you & was feeling super touched seeing you two wearing the graduation gown. I'm sure God has even greater plans for you & let's run this race together my two beloved buddies. I love you !

what's going on now?

2010-08-25T15:30:00.002+08:00

Count your blessings!

2010-08-16T19:28:00.006+08:00

Happy 3rd Monthsary dearest! ♥

Went for morning prayer meeting today. it was good but feeling tired though.
But the tiredness was all wash away with a almost 2-3hrs of sleep after that.

Met up with dearest, watch a chinese movie at his house b4 heading out for dinner at Northpoint.
Dearest treat me to Manhattan's (: Thank you dearest!
iloveyou! ♥

after today's meeting up with dearest, dunno when will be the next time already cos i'm working full shift at V on Tues & Wed and half day shift on Thurs & Fri ... but on Thurs & Fri after work, i got places to go/rush to already ...
then sat got F1 signing of contract ...
aye ... hope to cya soon dearest! gonna miss you loads :(

On the side note, congrats to dearest, Dion, Fenella & Raihan for making it into the Taiwan trip ! :D

2010-08-12T21:35:00.003+08:00

past 1 month been great, got a new handphone and after 2 weeks, a new laptop ..
but now, am broke till cannot broke liao ...
the feeling of it sucks! especially me, who needs food every now & then badly ...
but i believe everything's gonna be alright soon (:

now just nidda start chiong-ing work for my korea trip expenses & daily expenses ...
hopefully things will turn out just fine (:

2010-08-08T23:25:00.005+08:00

Went for service at JW building today (:
but was late, cab to fetch karine then to church ..
the taxi uncle totally cheat our $2 plus ..

serice was good, Pastor Mike was here to preach (:
after service, had a mini meeting with Katriel, then KK & Justin came along ...
left around 3.45pm to meet dearest at Yishun ...
head down to AMK, had a early dinner with dearest then went to shop around for his shirt ...

after 1hr plus, went to had dinner with his parents at Fish & Co :D
super delicious!! :p
Uncle drop me off at yishun mrt then train home (:

Photo of the day:

2010-08-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

things that happen recently:

- Got a new phone, LG Optimus
- Got a new laptop (:
- POM presentation next thurs
- EOP event day next wed
- National day celebration in school was an blast
- Many BLs admin work to do

& MANY MANY work left undone that needs to be finished but i'm tired ! :(

2010-07-31T01:54:00.002+08:00

Recently, i'm in love with this picture.
i can just stare at that picture for mins or occasionally taking a look at it.
i really love this picture a lot be'cos everytime when i look at it, a sweet feeling will just flow in me.

when those sweet moments are here, do catch it cos when its gone, its forever gone.
even if u wish for it to happen again, it won't. even if it were to happen again, everything just gonna be different.

2010-07-25T00:43:00.002+08:00

when it comes to love ...

just went to Jayme's/Shing's blog,
seriously, i really kinda look up to her, my role model.
inspired by her loads of time through her blog post.

like the sentence under the picture, "when it comes to love ... "

when it comes to love, its unconditional.

2010-07-22T18:14:00.003+08:00

When a heart-breaker stole your heart

What's happening to me nowadays?
i thought everything was ok till ... just now ...
the hug that you gave just make me break down for no reason,
having your attention is just all i want :x
my bloody valentine

The sparks were flyin' not the type that we need

2010-07-12T19:59:00.003+08:00

Because its you that's why it hurts so much

Some stuff happen after school ... was really angry at that point of time ...
& was really feeling very angry,hurt & sad tills tears could just roll down ...
but after things cools down,
i started reflecting, why am i being so ?

unknowingly, i begin to feel that i''ll lost you.
unknowingly, my mind/body seems to have a alarm in it.
always ringing now & then that things will be going wrong soon so pls cherish every moment you have now.
i guess the more u wanna grab hold of something, the more you'll lose it faster.

feeling very very tired, exhausted ...
i really wish things to go on well, but it just doesn't seem so,
maybe its just me ...

i dunno when will u contact me,
& will you even see this cos even if you did,
i doubt you keep it silent too.
sometimes i really wish you'll trash things out
& say whatever that's in you.
my dear, pls don't keep everything into your
heart ...

2010-07-10T20:19:00.002+08:00

Can i give my love to you ?

Loads been going through my mind this whole week, partly also be'cos i'm sick then tend to be much more emotional & all ...
been having all negative thoughts & nightmare bout some stuff!
it really scares me off cos the feeling involved was so real that when i woke up, i do not know whether is it true a not D:

Anyway! i'm kinda waiting for Sunday to come!
Pastor Mike Connell is preaching this week & gonna go for The Big Groove!
*woots!
But still hoping things will go well & i'm gonna be heal!
Amen! :D

2010-07-07T07:59:00.004+08:00

Monday!

Went to school, was late D:
But everything was still ok except i'm having serious flu!
feeling a bit terrible but still manageable ...
Had dinner with Darling at AMK's MOF then home ...

Tuesday!

din go school! feeling super terrible!
don't even have the strength to wake up & all, so slept till 11am plus ...
woke up, eat some light stuff then went to see doc ..
ate medicine, sleep, eat some light stuff, sleep then wake up eat dinner & medicine then off to sleep again ..
practically slept the whole day :x

Wednesday! *Edited!

school starts at 1.30pm today but i'm awake since 6am cos am hungry :x
so wake up, had breakfast & ate medicine ...
did EOP worksheet & went back to sleep around 9plus ...
woke up nearly 11am, start preparing for school & off to school.
Had briefing then 1hr of POM then head to another briefing.
some stuff happen after the briefing ... unpleasant stuff ...
but on the other hand, i guess its a blessing in disguise bahz ...

2010-07-04T23:09:00.003+08:00

Feeling super moody now!
school starts tmr & i'm totally not in the mood for that!
i wish holiday could continue!!

Photo taken from deviantart

2010-07-02T15:21:00.003+08:00

In a blink of an eye, school's reopening in 2days time!
freaking 2 days time!

Anyway! here are some events that happen recently:

- Bought a new wallet (:
- Had dinner with Darling's parents
- Work-ed

can i have 1 more week of school hols pls !

2010-06-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

Haven been updating :x
But everyday been quite busy for me even though its holiday now,
juggling with projects, work & relationships ...

But all is still good now,
just hoping everything will turn out fine.

2010-06-07T00:12:00.000+08:00

2010-05-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

Asia Conference 2010

Went for Asia Conference opening night!
it was awesome! :D
though had to bring loads of stuff to school & all, but its all good! (:

Had special performance, and the singer sang "Because of You" and said something bout it when she sing.
& its totally same as mine!
during those times, like 1/2 weeks ago, this song was my comforter ...
thank God for his comfort ... He's always there for me ♥♥
Pastor Kong preach tonight & its awesome! :D
Ken send us back & so yup ...

Tmr's class outing, trip to Sentosa ...
hopefully everything turns out well ...
oh oh oh! rushing down for Asia Conference after that too~

with You every moment, my sweetest addiction ♥

2010-05-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

Tonight ... tonight's the night i gotta bid goodbye

2010-05-08T11:47:00.002+08:00

♥ I know You love me still

Times are really getting a little tough now ...
so many things to do but just ... the heart of doing is not there ..
i mean, i wanna help in every areas that i can ...
but its like the heart is willing but the body isn't ...

Just a little bit more, Qi yu!

You can do it! Hwaiting!

2010-05-06T22:19:00.002+08:00

Kok Khuen's ORD Parade!

Went for Kok Khuen's ORD Parade on Wed! ♥
rushed to change & cab down to Commando's camp.
upon reaching the place, all the army guys(recruits in commando camp) are there ushering & all ..
the sight is just awesome! :D
had a good time at the parade, but took super little photos with KK :(

but everything is still awesome! XD

Had dinner at Changi Village then Ken drive me home (:

Kok khuen ah!

i'm so proud of you man!

being a commando & enduring through all those hardships especially those times when u're injured & all ...

Thanks for the badge & polaroid ... i love it loads ...

treasure & cherish those nice gestures of yours!

you're really a changed man now ...

i love you loads, buddy! ♥♥

2010-04-28T00:56:00.000+08:00

My Abba Father is super cute!
making me laugh & all just by talking bout it ...
i love you!

2010-04-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

On the verge of breaking down, but i know i can't afford to ...

2010-04-23T17:32:00.003+08:00

Just like what the picture said, i wanna thank those peeps that's dear to me & those friends who's always around me.
You guys know who you are (:

2010-04-14T23:58:00.006+08:00

Monday & Tuesday

Was busy with April Intake's Orientation.
Eddie was my partner :D
IBB was my orientation class, a banking course class.
Had a nice & enjoyable time with them. (:

Wednesday

Went back to class for lessons.
Had so many problems while deciding on the group members :(
Hope everything will be alright throughout the whole projects ...

2010-04-10T11:24:00.002+08:00

Someone remind me of what Katriel shared during CGM some time ago,

" Life is all about love & time is the expression of love. The best gift you can give your loved ones is to give them your time!"

I guess that's also why i cherish & treasure those quality times spent & all ...

2010-04-07T11:20:00.004+08:00

How many days had passed?
4-5 days? & just within this few shorts days, LOADS of things happened!
& sometime, its just so overwhelming ...

During my "last day" at work, i told myself i wanna stay at home, watch videos all day long & just spend my day at home resting, getting back all my sleep ...
but look at what's happening now ... been busy again & getting less sleep(!) & haven really been doing the stuff i've been wanting to ...
but thank God,somehow or rather, its all still alright, all still under control ...

School's starting soon & it will be a start of another busy & hectic time ?
just wish all that fast paced stuff that's happening would slow down to a slow pace that i wish & want ....
its kinda suffocating yo !

& you!
why do i always feel there's something beneath all your words?

& you!
pls ... let things slow down & give me a space to gasp for air!
i understand why you're doing this but still, i need my space for air yo!

2010-04-03T02:10:00.002+08:00

Good Friday!
Indeed it was! :D

2010-03-30T13:59:00.002+08:00

Am super excited for Easter now!
can't wait for the two days to come ...
going Easter service with my loved friends, enjoying everything on that day with them & all, spending the day with them ...
its just awesome for me.

"Watch & pray"

I'll remember this.

2010-03-28T01:25:00.000+08:00

Number 1

Thanks for the meet up!
i really enjoyed myself throughout the whole time.
though it was short, but its all good (:

Number 2

You're back!
Am so glad to see you & i got the pictures from you already! (:
i love & miss those pictures man!
thanks for the gift you got me, its pretty & its gonna be something very dear to me from today onwards! :D ♥

Number 3

You're awesome. i really dunno what word to use to describe You.
Even though it seems to be a nightmare on the outside, but on the inside, there's so much thing to it.
No matter what, i'm gonna leaving everything to you & i really enjoyed & love the time i spent flipping through here & there, reading,figuring the stuff out & then piecing up all the scattered information together.
It just make me feel so much closer to you.
my first love, let me come back to You once again.
clinging onto you, trusting you with all i have.
W.A.I.T on you.

2010-03-27T03:24:00.001+08:00

I was wrong wrong wrong
Your words were so, so, so sweet that
I didn't realize you were playing me, me, me
with your words, words, words everyday

Baby do you really wanna hurt me?
Why are you doing this to me? why?

The stories regarding your other men
The stories regarding your behavior
I tried to ignore and pretended that I didn't hear but

The way you act when you are intoxicated
The way you smile at my friend
Change it Stop it
Even though I tell you many times

You say I'm so sorry only for that moment
You say I will change only for that moment
My heart in pa, pa, pain it hurts but
I can't help but repeating

I was wrong wrong wrong
Your words were so, so, so sweet that
I didn't realize you were playing me, me, me
with your words, words, words everyday
Baby you breaking my heart
Baby you hurting my heart
I want to stop this
I know this is wrong
but I keep going back to you

Baby you and I
Like a bad popular song
I'm crying inside, but I force a smile like a clown
Baby you and I
Like a bad popular song
I'm crying inside

My heart and body go astray
I am a such fool with no pride that
Although I was deceived by love I wipe my tears
and just go back to you knowing that this is wrong
The fact that I am a toy that you played and threw away
Makes my feeling unbearable
But Why! Why! Why! Why!
Today I am a clown who smiles in front of you again

2010-03-22T01:01:00.006+08:00

Its gonna be a post of birthday dedications post & probably some thank you dedication post.

*taken during her SOT days
FYI, SOT stands for School Of Theology

Happy Birthday Liyee!
I hope you did had an enjoyable day though it wasn't filled with any big celebration or anything.
Thank you for inviting me over to your house for a nice meal & a good time gathering together.
You're another one who have seen me grown throughout the years ...
& the comment you made that makes everyone go "yea lo yea lo" ... *haha!*
i hope i'm a different person. at least there's changes in that area?
no matter what, thank God for you in my life.
I love you ♥

Karen! (:

Happy Birthday Karen! :D
Hope you like the celebration we had for you.
Thank God for you in my life.
thank you for your guidance & sacrifices that you've made for our CG.

Katriel!

Miao~! it's been hard on you during this month as a birthday IC.
you've done a good job! :D
So sorry that i'm unable to help much but just being there whenever you need me.
Jiayou for SOT! :D
i love you ♥

Andrew!

Hey mister!
You've really been a good friend to me. Thank God for you in my life.
whenever i need someone, you'll always be there to support me & encourage me.
you're always there, always speaking straight into the problems in my life.
thank you for showering me with your love, care & concern.
I really appreciate it a lot a lot .
let's REALLY meet up soon over a meal or drink ...
love you loads ♥

2010-03-20T23:26:00.002+08:00

我的第一次

first time ... i guess all of you will have your first time to everything right?
well, today alone, i've kinda lost or rather experience 3 first time.

1) Today i've break my record of talking on the phone to the same person for over 3hrs & we chatted from like midnight all to the way till morning!

2) Today i've had my first K session with the CG at Katong!

3) Today i've learned to play pool!

to all of you, it may seem like i'm crazy or whatever not..
at this age then have my first time to all of this while you guys dunno experience it long time ago or something ...
well, my first K session & pool session is with the CG ... :D
i'm glad its with them ... i guess next time whenever i play pool or have K session again, i'll remember today ...

Today ... a day worth to be remembered much.

2010-03-18T00:59:00.005+08:00

Kym's the woman! ♥
did closing with Kym (:
haven been partner with her since a long long time!

while going home, some stuff happen ..
though it kinda made me ... ... but anyway ...
thanks uh ...

Edited!

maybe its also my fault for expecting something in you when i don't even have the right to do so, but i doubt you'll read my blog & all ...
seriously, who & what am i to you man ...
* why am i always stuck with the above question?! :@

tumblr!

2010-03-16T01:57:00.006+08:00

watched it at the auditorium with tears in my eyes ....
although it was tears but it was tears of joy ...

2010-03-16T01:02:00.002+08:00

♥ Because i'm the chosen one

Just came back from the Youth Meeting with Pastor Kong! ♥♥
felt burden by some stuff ...
I know God is speaking to that particular area of my life ...
cos it's being mention more then once just within a few hours ....

"turning your captivity/addiction into obedience to God"

Pastor Margaret Court

i've betrayed Your love for me for dunno how many times ...
its time ... for obedience ...
i nidda pass this in order for me to move on .. BREAKTHROUGH!
hopefully i'll keep this thought for long!

2010-03-14T22:46:00.002+08:00

Happy White Day! :D
白色情人节快乐！

I spent this special day unknowingly till when i reach home & realised its this day ....

2010-03-13T00:29:00.004+08:00

Have not been blogging in details for quite some time ...
gonna update all in this post so its gonna be a long long one! :x

Monday - Wednesday

Exam days! Stress like crazy & worst of all, i was sick.
But overall, still managed to do the papers & all ...
hoping for the best now.

Thursday

Went back to school to prepare for Friday's BL Farewell party.
Start doing stuff here & there.
a h2h talk ...

Friday

D-Day! Went to school around 10plus with Shannon.
Dressing up so nicely to go school kinda weird man ..
but anyway, all went well (:
Attend Ben's great grandmother's wake.
Was feeling tired & sick over there :@

Now home sweet home, gonna get my rest for its gonna be a long day again for the weekends!

A special "Thank You" dedication list :

♥ Andrew
♥ Benson
♥ Hot pink guy
♥ Katriel
♥ Shannon
♥ The clique
♥ All the BLs

2010-03-10T20:00:00.003+08:00

2010-03-07T20:32:00.002+08:00

Let's all Arise & Build! :D

2010-03-06T13:32:00.000+08:00

"When God wants to strengthen and enlarge your heart, He stretch it real hard."

Got it from Jayme's blog

2010-03-04T23:23:00.007+08:00

Mr Tan Jian Quan!

Had dinner with him today.
Update each other about our happenings & all ...
Had a really good time talking with & all ...
Out of all the stuff that we've talked,
the only thing that keep replaying in my mind is:

"有时你必须对自己残忍一点，这样你才可以走比较遥远的路。"

oh! before meeting Jian Quan for dinner,
went to City Square with the girls to study ...
had an awesome time with them :D

Thank You Abba Father...
Joshua 1:9

2010-03-03T23:35:00.003+08:00

kinda tired of worrying how ppl view me ...
if that's what you see me, then so be it.

Raihan been tying "scorpion" for me & Fenella this two day (:
& the outcome is superb! :D Thanks alot girl! ♥

Had a emotion downturn today after lunch.
Thanks to Fenella, Raihan, Yi Jen, Shannon, Hot pink & Shakirah for their companion.
Been very close with them recently ... & i thank God for them.

After school, left with Shannon & Hot pink,
& somehow or rather, i begin to tear in front of them. :x
* they just give me the shi yun & eugene feel
went back school to settle some BL stuff till like 5pm plus?
left school for Yami yogurt to cheer ourselves up with Shannon & Hot pink ...

that change in you that i've saw, i'm happy for you.
& that just prove that i did see something in you that others didn't.
if others don't understand me, i hope you will ...
prove me right, will you ...

2010-03-01T23:04:00.005+08:00

♥ because i'm holding onto the promises You have given me.

Troubles may surround me,
my heart may fail,
BUT You never will,
You never will.

I know that You can do anything
Through You, I can do anything,
I can do all things.
'Coz its You who gives me strength.
Nothing is impossible.

:D

2010-02-28T21:27:00.003+08:00

Service was plain awesome!
went for service with a troubled & heavy heart but left the auditorium feeling so light, so free ...
till i feel like flying ...
that's how amazing that feeling is ...

getting addicted to the presence that Holy Spirit can bring is really ... ...
indescribable!

LORD I GIVE YOU MY HEART
I GIVE YOU MY SOUL
I LIVE FOR YOU ALONE
EVERY BREATH THAT I TAKE
EVERY MOMENT I'M AWAKE
LORD HAVE YOUR WAY IN ME
GIVE YOU MY HEART…
GIVE YOU MY SOUL…

2010-02-28T10:12:00.000+08:00

Every mistake is a result of believing that you can rise above the Word of God…

– Robb Thompson

I can't wait for service now!!

2010-02-28T00:39:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Joanne! ♥ ♥

Hope you're doing fine lately ...
i miss you so much luh! :'(
i miss those times we go crazy & all ...
meeting up every morning to go school together,
have all the rantings & laughters & craziness
i miss it all ...

let's meet up soon !!!

Nevertheless(!), have a blessed birthday & day ahead! :D
May ur dreams come true & cling onto Him ...
He loves you & i love you too, Joanne ♥

2010-02-28T00:38:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Dion! (:

2010-02-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so so sorry my girl ...
Its just ... like natural reaction ...
I din mean to act it that way that time ... i really regret it loads now ...
things just seem a bit better with you & now be'cos of this, we both cried & all ...
I really wanna get back those good times i had with you again ...
those times whereby we can just sit at somewhere to talk & enjoy our drinks or snack ...
I really wish to get back your reply ...

& i din blame for you or whatsoever,
i know you din mean it ...
can we just bury this problem & get back together?

2010-02-24T00:59:00.001+08:00

God, i need You badly ...

2010-02-21T23:31:00.002+08:00

Had church service as usual but 1 thing special is i'm wearing all the new clothes & stuff (:
After service, lunch at JP's Pizza Hut with Jacqueline, Katriel, Liyee, Brinton, Matthew, Benjamin & Kok Khuen.
Head down to PS with Kok Khuen for Ben & Jerry's ice-cream.
went to look for Cassandra too! :D
Took LOADS of pictures then home. (:

Bye Kok Khuen!
I know you won't be able to read this since you're at the airport now ...
But still, do take care during your 1 month training!!
cya after 1 month!!

Deeper in love with You,
Deeper in love with You,
I love You more then anything in life~

You are magnificent,
eternally glorious Jesus
No one can ever be compare to You

once again i sing this,
but everytime i sing,
i sing with different feelings & emotions,
different images that float through my mind.

Because its You God,
that You are faithful even when i'm faithless

2010-02-20T21:07:00.002+08:00

♥ A big "thank you" to all for being there
*you guys know who you are (:

2010-02-18T22:42:00.005+08:00

had TPS presentation today.
had a small problem with the presentation but thank God all was kinda well at the end.
We wore the Penerakan's clothes too (:
super fun & took pictures after everything (:

Went for SVE's test then went out school for break.
but went back to school around 12pm for BL's meeting.
the meeting was a quick one so went to canteen to join Shannon's & clique for lunch after that ...
Hot pink guy kanna shoot by me 2 times .. lolx!
they accompanied me till its time for S&W too (:
had a enjoyable time with them (:

S&W then CWP then home.

Pretty much thanks to:

- Katriel ♥
- Hot pink guy (:
- Eugene ♥ ♥
- Shi yun's girl :D

2010-02-17T15:35:00.007+08:00

The second goodbye

i thought I'll cry buckets like the other time when we quarreled.
but Thank God, i din even shed a single tears.
Maybe be'cos i really think about it for quite awhile & all ...
its not that the feelings fade or anything, its just ... ...

i was reading through all the lovely msg you sent to me this morning,
it brought back the sweet times we had but at the same time, it brought sadness to my heart even more.
the msg i send u last night, was the last lovely msg ...
maybe its nth to you, but i meant it when i send it to you.

i've left bits & pieces all over my blog post.
if you were to read it all, is there even a tugging in your heart?

2010-02-16T02:17:00.004+08:00

♥ Its too late now

Shi yun ah! ♥
Hope you really had an enjoyable day !
& thank you for hearing the rantings :x
thank you allowing me to be like a small girl infront of you :X
thank you so much girl! love ya! ♥♥

Eugene ah! ♥
You're the best already! Helping me to go out till late night & all ...
You this bubbly big size guy just give me e assurance that i need ...
thank you for allowing me to be like a small girl infront of you!
you really made me feel like a small girl & i know i'll be safe if u're here with me.
thank you ~! love ya! ♥♥

she went into NUH again & while sending her to A&E, we took a cab & that freaking cab driver do not know the way to NUH.
Thank God that nth major happen to her.
Just leaving up everything to God.

the sense of urgency & burden.
God, You're really good to me.
Whenever relationships taken its toll on me, You'll never fail to remind me of this urgency, this burden & the vision.

" But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all things shall be added to you."
- Matthew 6:33

i guess ... this is it huh? a second goodbye ...
even though i'll say that goodbye,
but do know that, deep within me,
a portion of my heart is still with you.
a portion of me is still loving you.

2010-02-16T02:13:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Xue en! :D

2010-02-15T00:08:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday, Shi Yun!
love you ♥ ♥

2010-02-14T01:51:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!

2010-02-12T23:02:00.005+08:00

Love my love my
I still love my

My valentine running rings around me
Hanging by a thread but we're loosening , loosening
The sparks were flyin' not the type that we need
Bringing a fire that is burning me , burning me

(I know) Nobody said that it'd be easy
(My heart) That we could find a way ,make a way
(But you don't) You don't prioritize me

How'm I s'posed to believe yours games will ever change ,ever change

It's such a dirty mess imperfect at it's best
But it's my love ,my love ,my bloody valentine
Sometimes i wanna leave but then I want you next to me
My love ,my love ,my bloody valentine
Maybe I should but still i just can't walk away
Try to convince me once again that I should stay
Through all the brokenness this bleeding heart must confess
I love my love my bloody valentine

Love my love my
I still love my (bloody valentine)

I open doors but you close them on me
I'm compromising won't you show the same ,help the change
Your phone is ringing it says shorty ,so tell me
What's her name ,how'd she get your number?
Don't try to be playin' me
(Cuz i'll know) Before you even say anything
(But I hope) You wouldn't lie to me ,don't lie to me
You know that we've been here before
OH Don't patronize ,don't feed me lines
Just change your ways yeah make it right

My Bloody Valentine - Tata Young

2010-02-12T21:57:00.002+08:00

when things happen, i nidda learn to face it alone.
& not count on anyone else.

God, thank You for keeping her safe.
though she's still in the hospital now,
but am thankful that she's still alright.
through this, i got the sense of urgency & the burden in me.
but i know this is good for me.

I wanna text you lots of time today.
but the thought of having ur expected replies,
i decided not to.
do u still care?

2010-02-12T01:31:00.002+08:00

♥ Because its You

Thank You for showing the vision once again.
Having that vision twice just excites me!
I will really bear it in my mind, think, speak,dream & believe it in coming to pass.
Everything is possible with God & to those who believe it,yeah?
Amen! :D

Although i got my down moments during the first half of the day,
but ever since afternoon till NOW, its been good.
waahahahax! XD

kindadisappointedwhen
youdinaskmewhy
didireachhomesolate
butstillniddabethankfulthatyou
smsmenightsiguess

2010-02-10T20:21:00.004+08:00

i wanna feel loved too ya know?
because its only you who can make me feel this way!
do u care for me?!

i really hate to let my 2010 V day to let it go like that.
its like i'm attached but letting V day pass just like i'm single.
then what am i? attached or single?

2010-02-09T21:48:00.002+08:00

you drop me a bomb four.
hopefully all other details are kept as a secret.

you drop me a bomb five.
is that really that easy to put down that feelings ?
but i'm thankful you shared stuff with me (:
throughout the whole time, thank you for all.

you drop me a bomb six.
we both felt the same & i thought you'll just end there,
but i'm wrong, you continue & that prove me wrong. (:
but somehow, you do prove me right bout something that i've realise deep down.

gluckstoyou,L
ibelieveeverythingsgonnabealright
illbethereforyouifyouallowmetodoso

2010-02-09T00:00:00.003+08:00

More of you & less of me

u drop a bomb to me. & i did something wrong bout it.
my reactions & all ... it was all a mistake.
sometimes i just wonder, what are u thinking ...

you drop a bomb to me too.
i know i can count on you at times ...
i know i can ...

you drop me a bomb three.
i expected something, but no, you just prove part of me right/wrong.
somehow, is it be'cos we have diff perspective & all?
i dunno uh ... but i do hopefully think so & wish to.
but somehow, i'm still thankful for certain stuff.

God, thank You for blessing me in terms of financial.
Indeed, You're always on time. NEVER late nor early, just on the dot.
if You can see me through in my financial, God, i believe You can see me through my relationships & emotions too.
Amen.

2010-02-06T00:09:00.003+08:00

Just reach home not long ago ...
Had a long & fruitful day! :D
but was feeling super tired at the end of everything :x
was like yawning non-stop while walking home from the mrt station!
& the bump on my forehead hurts crazily! :(

School as usual & its like for the first time, i felt it was a fri-sat feeling!
stayed back in school till3plus for TPS project but ended up, din do much! :x
slack awhile more at bishan with Fenella & Yi Jen then walk to mrt to meet Cass & Katriel! ♥
went to 313 then far east. Manage to bought a clothing! :D
My first ever type of clothing! :o

Been eating non-stop today! make me spent lots of money only!
must control my expenditure & temptations for food already~

Gonna be a long day again tmr ...
But i know its gonna be good :D

hopeyou'llnotgetsunburnt♥

2010-02-04T22:10:00.002+08:00

*3 cheers for me

- super proud of myself cos i finally succeed in doing it! :D
- went to Jayme's blog! ♥
- felt as if i'm gonna fall sick soon :x
- can't wait till tmr! :D

i finally let it go! ♥
never gonna let it come back to me!
gonna guard my heart!
*notboutyou,L

2010-02-03T20:12:00.002+08:00

A day of success!
* thankful & happy!*

wanna do it more often! (:

i'll do it your style.
but remember what i sent you in the evening. i meant it.
I just wanna be someone thats dear to you, just that simple.

2010-02-01T00:54:00.001+08:00

The first time that i get to cancel a item in my wishlist within a day! (:

Holdmewhileyoustillcan
uknowiloveyou,
butyou?doyoustillloveme?

2010-02-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

Rev.Dr. Niko

Had a awesome service today! Rev.Dr.Niko was the speaker!
He's awesome! :D
Was feeling super down from last nite (if u've read the post i post this morning, u'll know) till morning, even when i wake up, i just felt like crying...

having that emotions in me, i left for service.
but thank God(!), all that emotions was lifted up to Him.
Felt awesome & all after the service.
B4 de-brief, Karen asked me to help Mdm Lu to the toilet & that reminds me of me joining the dialect church as my ministry ...
BUT, i'm still considering due to all the exams period & all ...

a list of thanksgiving ...

Thank You Lord for having Kok Khuen to bless me with the book "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" .
i know i'll have lots of emotional struggles if i read it, but i'll still choose to read it.
cos i know, its all for my own good.
& true enough, just by reading 2 pages of it, i felt something...
*secret*

Thank You Lord for having Rev.Dr.Niko here at CHC to share a word with us.

Thank You Lord for my mummy who cooked seafood fried rice today.
I know it caused lots of trouble for her just to cook that cos of her sensitive skin to prawns & all ...

Thank You Lord for EVERYTHING.

Deeper in love with You,
Deeper in love with You,
i love You more then anything in life

i believe in You (X3)
i trust in You (X3)

2010-01-30T00:09:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday, Thomas Lee!

Life is all about love & time is the expression of love.
The best gift you can give your loved ones is to give them your time!

2010-01-29T00:17:00.003+08:00

A Day To Be Celebrated.
A Day To Be Remembered.

iloveyou

2010-01-28T16:27:00.003+08:00

Its been a long battle of emotions throughout this week.
i always believed that "other people can do that do me but just my loved one can't! 100% cannot"
& if my loved one did that it would really felt like my whole world is crashing down.
& at that time, i just wanna quickly escape to somewhere to be alone at that very moment.
(that explains why i wanna get away quickly today)

there're lots more things i wanna blog.
can't seem to find the right words nor pictures to express it all ...
o well... ....

" Isn't that what a relationship is supposed to be? Meeting each other needs.
Its always trust & partnership. "

Tmr's the day.
I would really wish to spend some quality time with you,
Quality time is really what i want & wish for.
Praying that everything's gonna be alright.
Amen.

2010-01-27T21:43:00.005+08:00

♥ Your love just blow me off

Your love & touch just blow me off everytime i seek after You.
Thank you for letting me to go back to Your throne after the period of going astray.
You're indeed all i need ...
iloveyou Daddy God ♥

Maybe Jacq is right.
at that very moment, i've done wrong.
now i know why jacq said that.
Ruo ning, i'm sorry.
(dunno whether will u see this, but still...)

maybeishouldlearntoletgo
sometimeitjusthurtmebadlydeepdown
L,itsnotboutyou
dunbemad&anyhowthinkalright?

2010-01-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

Little Relationship Principle

The joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment.

Intimacy means being close to some, being vulnerable, open & dependent.
Its giving to & receiving from another person the deepest parts of who we are - our hopes, our fears, our secrets, our affections.

I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris

2010-01-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

♥ Knowing the fact that You'll never forsake me is already enough

I wanna blog & post up some pictures.
but just seem to find the right pictures & words to say.
its just all mixed up.

Gratitude.
That's the only word i can say to the few of you who always standby me.
you know who you are.
those that embrace me, support my decision even if they do not agree.
be'cos of you guys, whenever i fall, i did not fall that badly cos you guys are there to catch me.

knowing that You'll not forsake me is already enough for me to pull through any barriers that You've given me to pass through.
Unfailing love that surrounds me.
Your love that teaches & mould me to be what i am today.
i've found myself through You. I'll never let You go.

2010-01-19T22:31:00.003+08:00

Tan Jian Quan!

Finally met up with him over a meal after mentioning it for like 6 - 8months!
Its really been a long long time ever since we met.

Met up with him at Lot1 after his training at home team.
Had dinner at KFC & that's also where we started chatting & eating! (:
Talked bout the happenings in our life & it's all like serious talks ...
Throughout the whole time, i'm learning things from him.
He did most of the talking, giving me advices & encouragement...
Thanks ah Jian Quan! :D
I really appreciate everything that you've said.

I just love all this simple meet-up, it can be a meal or.. anything.
Just u & ur friends, gathering together to chit-chat & all, updating each other about one another's life, laughing away at some stuff ....
Though it may be just a simple meet up or something, but unknowingly, a bond is created when u just start to open up & share.
Spending some Quality Time with friends & loved one is just what reminds you when they're being mentioned or being miss by you.